It's Only Up From Here

Usually, metaphorically to go down is a negative thing. There's the old saying, "digging a hole for myself," or "digging a hole you can't get out of." Also, down is associated with hell, which is very very bad. Then some say "It can only go up from here." So going up is a good thing right? Climbing the corporate latter or higher man on the totem pole--all good things. Then why is it when you age goes up it's a bad thing? Well, at least it's a bad thing after you've hit all the landmarks such as; sweet sixteen, 18 adult, 21 drinking age, 25 quarter of a century. After that it's so scary!!!

I don't know why, but this birthday is making me feel sooo.... depressed and I know I shouldn't be. I know that my life is good and that I have SO MUCH to be grateful for. I'm healthy. I don't struggle to pay the bill. I'm able to live a comfortable life and I don't really have too much to worry about. But still, something is missing.

I think we all know from my post what that missing thing is, intimate love. I can't exactly tell you why I want it so bad, but I do and it's been something that I always have. I've always dreamed of being with my dream man ever since I was a little girl.

Lately, I've had two wedding proposal dreams, so marriage is definitely on the mind, even though I feel like I'm not even close to achieving it. I even had a dream I was getting married, which is a first. I've had baby dreams way before I had marriage dreams.

Marriage, I don't want to just jump into it. In the last month I've found out that two my girlfriends got or is getting a divorce and that is just SO crazy to me. I guess it's good that I'm really taking my time to find the absolute right guy, because I want him to stick. Forever and ever!!!

Like I like to say, "Success is my only option." I believe that good things are going to happen in my life. I think that love is going to happen soon--very soon. I think that I'm going to keep a positive attitude and keep reaching for my goals.

I am more than capable of making things happen in my life and I will accomplish my goals. There is no doubt in my mind that with perseverance and determination that I can do anything I want to do. I believe in me.