The Red Easter Basket

They were packing up all her stuff for it had no use anymore. Who knows where it would go, but it could no longer be here. My grandmother passed away when I was three years old. It wouldn't be until years later that I would feel the shortcoming of losing her.

I didn't know her very well, but in my eyes she was a success. Her first business was not only lucrative, but something she was passionate about. She was the epitome of a woman, she was into fashion and hair and she was a wonderful cook and baker.

Not only did my older family go through her things and find what they deemed valuable, but so did I. At the age of 3 I tracked down a red Easter basket, which continue to be my special Easter basket throughout my childhood and what did I fill that basket with? Sprinkles. Yup, I manage to find a whole basket full of sprinkles. Grandma had every sprinkle imaginable. Red ones, green ones, confetti... She loved to bake and she had them all.

So as everyone went about their business I went around guarding my very special sprinkles. I'm pretty sure I ate them and lick the caps. So as I was baking and making very yummy treats for Easter, which I happen to buy rainbow dotted sprinkles for it brought me back to the memories of my grandma and who she used to be.

I wish I had gotten to know her more and learned from her. Not only did she have her own beauty salon, but with the help of my uncle she manage to open the very first two Taco Bells in Merced. She was successful and talented and I just wish I could have gotten to know this lady just a little bit more.

I love to bake and I think I got that from her. So now I try to live on in her memory and just to make people's day a little brighter by the things I make. After all, sprinkles make the world a lot brighter.

Insane, Doing the Same Thing and Expecting the Different Results

The other day I overheard my boss say this quote, which I have heard many times before, but it never really registered with me until that moment. I thought to myself my life is pretty stagnant, am I insane? Let's back up for a second and review my goals, number one: find a new career/money-making opportunity, number two: find someone nice to date, and number three: lose weight, get in shape.

In the last two years I have squeaked by with odds-and-ends jobs and I've gone on dates, dated one guy for about 5 months and manage to "maintain" my weight with a little fluctuation. But all-in-all life hasn't really changed. So I thought, maybe I am doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

So, today I went into my day with a different perspective. I thought about the small things that I could change that would help me do things to reach towards my goals. My main focus today was health. The co-workers decided to order Mexican, which I LOVE and normally can't resist, but I had a healthy salad with tuna on it. So instead of saying forget the salad I decided to stick with it and it turned out to be a really nice lunch. Not only did I get a TON of vitamins from it I also didn't feel like taking a nap immediately proceeding my break.

Next, after fairly healthy meal and logging my food I said, you know what I need to work out. I was tempted to take my nice after-dinner relaxing shower, but then I thought if I take a shower right now I'm not going to work out. I can change my routine to make time for it. You know what it felt great and now I have SOOO much energy, not sure if that's a good or bad thing at 10 p.m.

So, yes I do make a huge effort to be healthy, BUT I always fall off the wagon and when I do that I regress to my old ways doing the same thing and expecting different results. Looking at my goals I put health last, but I really think it needs to come first. After all it is going to improve my mood, my energy and all around my spirit, so hopefully it will be the first step for me reaching all my goals.

So to all you out there in Blogland, don't be insane change it up and see new results.

The Girl Who Fell Too Much Origin

So I never really explained the title to my blog and I thought since I feel like writing and I can't seem to collect and organize my current emotions well enough to put them together to produce and insightful blog that I would go in this direction.

The Girl Who Fell Too Much, well for me it's pretty self-explanatory. Let's just say that I tend to learn the hard way, which isn't always fun--just like falling, it's hurts and sometimes it's hard and takes a while to pick yourself back up.

I have made my share of mistakes... Little downfalls, but usually ones that hold be back in some way. I can't say that anything has really been all that dramatic. It's not like BIG disasters  happen in my life, just little hiccups. I would equate it to a toddler trying to learn to walk, they get up, fall down, get up, fall down, and because they fall so much they don't get very far very fast. That's how I feel a lot of the time.

Then there's the classic fall for a guy....which I have also found myself doing one or two times. Then I always end up once again disappointed and well that sucks. Being a hopeful and an optimist I can't help but want to see the best in people... I want to love unconditionally and I want the same in return, in the process I tend to disregard classic "red flags."

But that's just me and that's who I am. I can't help it as much as I try. Yeah, I get hurt sometimes, but I'm able to get back up from it and at least I can say that I tried. I can't help but want to see the best in everyone. Maybe it's the challenge I like, the problem solving.

So maybe I won't always be The Girl Who Fell Too Much, but for now I am and I'm okay with that.

Back to Show this World What I Got

I'm back...It's been nearly two years since I've blogged. A lot has happened and nothing at all at the same time. I'm still working part time at CAP and I also do a little work for a tutoring company. Life is okay, but it is definitely a struggle. Every time I think I'm going to get out of this rut, well I don't quite make it, but I'm not giving up. I know that I have potential and I still have my hopes of being a big event planner. Slowly I'm getting more and more experience and I know one day it's all going to fall into place. I just need to stay diligent and stay positive, not many people become a success over night.

So moving on to why I originally started this blog "The Girl Who Fell Too Much" to talk about my dating life and share with other people the trials and tribulations of the crazy dating world. So what has happened in that category in the past 30 months... Well, I've been on a few dates that as you can see didn't go anywhere. I was dating a guy for about 5 or 6 months and I thought there was some REAL potential there. BUT just like many other things it had to come to an end. In hindsight I'm really happy I ended it when I did and I know now that it wasn't the right relationship for me. I have to say though that I did learn a lot about myself and I also learned how to communicate in a way I never thought I could and that was really awesome.

There is a person I have a crush on that I was considering pursuing. Through hearsay I heard he may be interest in me as well, BUT if he's not asking you out "He's NOT that into you." So it is what it is. For now I'm going to work on the aspect of me a little more and less making an "US" with someone else. Maybe, just maybe it happens when you least expect.

Well I know this blog is a little blah, but I'm still just getting into the groove of writing again.

Farewell and goodnight from The Girl Forever Willing to Fall One More Time