Nobody Warned Me

Nobody warned me that life would be this tough, nobody. I thought this was the land of opportunity, but here I am a college graduate struggling to survive. I worked my ass off working and going through school in hopes that I would land that full-time job and financial security. Here I am with a part-time job that isn't covering the bill.

So here I am faced with change, change that I don't like. I like my home. I like living on my own. I like it here. I don't want to leave, but I might have too. :( What to do, what to do??? Somehow I thought life would be easy and that everything would just fall into place, but it hasn't so far and so I'm stuck struggling.

I know I'm worth something. I know I have potential. I just don't know how to fulfill that potential. I wish someone would just make a road map for me. A road map to success.

I guess that's my job as well. Hm... I know I'll figure things out. Success is my only option. Success is my only option. I will make it. Must stay determined. Must stay focused.

Explaining title........

So I never really explained the title to my blog and I thought since I feel like writing and I can't seem to collect and organize my current emotions well enough to put them together to produce and insightful blog that I would go in this direction.

The Girl Who Fell Too Much, well for me it's pretty self explanatory. Let's just say that I tend to learn the hard way, which isn't always fun--just like falling, it's hurts and sometimes it's takes a while to pick yourself back up.

I have made my share of mistakes... Little downfalls, but usually ones that hold be back in some way. I can't say that anything has really been all that dramatic. It's not like BIG disaster has happened in my life, just little hiccups. I would equate it to a toddler trying to learn to walk, they get up, fall down, get up, fall down, and because they fall so much they don't get very far very fast. That's how I feel a lot of the time.

Then there's the classic fall for a guy....which I have also found myself doing one or two times. Then I always end up once again disappointed and well that sucks. Being hopeful and an optimist I can't help but want to see the best in people... I want to love unconditionally and I want the same in return, in the process I tend to disregard classic "red flags."

But that's just me and that's who I am. I can't help it as much as I try. Yeah, I get hurt sometimes, but I'm able to get back up from it and at least I can say that I tried. I can't help but want to see the best in everyone. Maybe it's the challenge I like, the problem solving.

So I fall and fall again. Maybe I will fall into something great. For now... I just dust myself off and just keep going.